Love.

I would love to know why there is the idea that one must find love, let alone find love at such a young age. I am a young woman, perhaps older than the number that depicts the years that I have spent on this earth and I find myself often wondering why this pressure exists. Who says that to be happy, or to be fulfilled one must have a man (or woman) beside them? Why can they not behold a world full of power without someone always there? And along with the idea that there must alway be someone else why is the pressure put onto people so young? The idea that one must find the person that they love and want to be with before they are lets say 25. Who says there is anything wrong with finding love when you are 50 or 100. Love will always be there not matter what age you are. That is it will always be there as long as you are open an allowing of it to enter your heart. This is all easy for me to say because I have never had a boyfriend, and at  age 18 I still am waiting for the perfect first kiss. There have been times when I have cried because I have felt defective or out or the norm because of this. But then the time comes when I snap out of that mood and realize that I am so thankful that I still have that. Call me a dreamer, or someone who believes in fairy tales but I do. To me I know that if I wanted to go out and just kiss any guy I see or perhaps "hook-up" I could, but thats not me, not what I want. I want to know who I am...Want to find my balance and show how strong I am. How powerful.